hi its lex :). these are some short little movies i made a long time ago.

they’re kind of hard to share cuz i was pre-transition and making myself

look as bad as possible to deal with my dysphoria.

im also naked in them a lot cuz thats funny.

i’m also really annoying and hate hearing myself talk.

i don’t like seeing myself at all actually.

but still, i put a lot of time and effort into them, and i still like them.

here’s a music video i made for “ego debt” off my album “history of bed”.

it’s made from every image i took in photo booth since 2012,

with my face replaced with images from my phone since 2015

it also features a sacrificial burning of a lot of my art from high school

that i was too embarrassed to have exist.

what a pain in the neck to edit! it took a few days off my life.

i made this at a crazy air bnb in new york.

it was just such a weird space it basically made itself. i love this one.

this was made in 2022? out of re-edited old videos i made around 2015.

i took the bits i like from them, junked the stuff

i hated, made some new bits for transitions,

and added an updated soundtrack. its only slightly embarrassing now, and a

monument of a period of my life where i was a completely different

(and much more irritating) person.

most of my vids are just built around whatever’s around that can be used as a prop.

i collect a lot of knick knacks and like

to show them off, so this is just what i do to people irl

except im wearing fake nails. good lord i was so ugly and unkempt

at this point, and dropping acid all the time. gross!

this is the infamous one that people bring up to me years later.

completely improvised around the titular garfield thing

i got at an antique fair in cape cod. jays unhinged performance is everything here,

i’m basically just a hideous prop.

i remember us laughing very hard while filming this,

specifically at jay kicking the door open. good times.

made this as a fan video for my favorite grindcore band in new england at the time.

their shows were total madness, and

very violent. this was also an excuse to experiment with datamoshing and

express my obsession with kangaroos at the time.

i think the band was kind of just confused by it. really nice guys!

just a bit i was doing to myself in the shower. more improv.

i dont know what to say about this

another surreal vlog format one with the colors glitched up.

my hair was pink! and i really was working at a pigeon farm

and inhaling their rotten dust. it smelled very bad.

me and jay made this in the dead of winter during a snowstorm,

and the original idea was to go to the beach in swim trunks

while it was snowing but we immediately dropped that. the new ending is funnier anyways.

this is also made by jays performance

and improvised dialogue with me as a nude prop.

i think we did chapter cards as a homage to antichrist.

i was just naked all the time in 2015 i guess. this was made as part of a collab

but i didnt like what the other person did

and thought it was lazy so i kept my original version.

i think this whole period of my life is summed up by me sitting in a

lawn chair, completely naked, being pelted with meatballs.

the unintelligible dialogue is just me talking about loving the orb.

it doesn’t get more dysphoric than this!

as of now i’ve got a referral to start electrolysis and never have to do this

miserable activity again. fuck shaving!

rip teddy, he was a good dog.

i cant help but feel responsible for his death because i made this.

sorry i made you stop existing pal :(